When I posted my little bit yesterday, I had no idea of the reactions it would cause.
I got everything from “Someone pissed Sairah off” to “Angry” and “Judgemental”.
I have never felt so loved 😀 And I say that in all honesty.
I think my real emotions behind everything were near the end of that piece where I said, “Stop making your area a negative place”.
I have known people that could kill a party just by entering the room. And they are not bad people! They just walk around with this aura of negativity and pessimism. Everything is always about how the world is out to get them. How everything is fucked up and how nothing will ever be better, so why bother.
Now, I understand that life is sometimes very cruel. And we are not always dealt an easy hand. And I’ll acknowledge that some people have it so much harder than others.
But some people have this ability to only see the dark, and to never face the light. They carry their dark around with them, and wherever they go, they cast that shadow all around. It sucks in your energy and your happiness like a black hole. And at the end of the meeting, you feel drained and tired and sad, and a little angry.
On the other hand, there are happy people. The kind of people who, when they walk into a room, make you smile for no reason at all except that they make you feel happy, and liked, and good about yourself.
I find myself wanting to hang out with people like that, to bask in their aura of positive energy.
It’s not that they don’t have hard or difficult circumstances in their lives. Or that everything is all rainbows and sunshine for them. Or even that they are too stupid to realize the realities of life.
It’s just that they choose to look at the light, and not dwell on the dark. And once they have filled themselves up with that light, it bursts out of them, and brightens everything around them.
I don’t know if you can choose what kind of person you are. But I have to believe you can try.
I do know that I will fill my life with the light.
Disjoint Wisdom 
One response to “The Light Inside You”
I am totally with you on this one. I have changed my attitude a lot since my teenage gloom where I was a suspicious, jealous nerd, Now I'm just a nerd, as you know.
And dementors exist in real life – too many of them unfortunately.
Anastasia
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