I seem to find myself with a desire to write.

This desire has been absent for quite a while, so I welcome it’s return.

Though nothing is quite as boring to read as a writer expressing a desire to write.

So, to relieve you from the boredom of reading about this desire, I have changed the color. Has this piqued your interest?

Piqued.  Such an interesting word. It means to stimulate, and yet, it is synonymized with annoy. So, is a stimulation an annoyance? That is blasphemy!

On a tangent, I thought I was inventing the word synonymized. But apparently not. Language is such a fascinating thing. It covers so much, and yet leaves so much undescribable. [No MSWord – I did not mean to type indescribable.]

Every time my brain stalls for the next words – I go change the colour. I have a friend who has noted that I always articulate my thoughts as they occur, and so she never needs to wonder what I am really thinking. These changing fonts may help you dive deeper into the ways my brain works.

But let us return to being piqued about piqued. Who decided that it is not pronounced “pik-wed”. “piked”. “pi-kwa”.

Ok – this is getting boring again. My brain is a scattering of random pathways.

When I was depressed, I could write for pages on end about how sad I was. And how utterly despondent the world could be.

But those darned pills and my reaching this happy state of being has robbed my of the ability to write deep, moving thoughts.

Though I do recognize the absurd egoism of defining those previous thoughts [which can be found here – yes – shameless self-promotion within my blog – what a concept] as being deep and moving when I only sold 25 copies of my book.

{I took a tangent from my writing to go take a look at my sales and tweak some settings on the amazon page for my books – but am back again. I doubt you missed me, as my segue does not have the ability to travel through space, time, and words.}

I need to find a topic. A story. A subject about which to write. It is not that I don’t have thoughts – it is just that I am having trouble congealing those thoughts into coherent words that form a narrative one would wish to read.

By the way – I am typing this in MSWord – and will copy/paste it into the wordpress editor – I wonder if the fonts will copy over or not – otherwise THAT will be a fun exercise – NOT. [Note from the future within wordpress – yup! – needed to edit here]

The things that have me thinking these days are the abortion conversation and the upcoming Ontario elections. Both of those fill me with seething rage and an uncomfortable feeling of helplessness. And those aren’t emotional states I want to get into right now. So I will leave those for another time.

Though I am also grappling with a resource management issue at work. But that too we will not discuss here.

Oh well. The sun is shining out there. The sky is blue. My heart is light – and insists on staying so. I guess I’ll wrap this up for now – and go prepare to take a walk.

I hope my words have given you some joy. And if not, I hope you find joy in many things today.