I think I find myself not examining my inner demons. 
Lately.

A reminder was sent of the time
When my evil simmered so close to the surface
It was a wonder my facade held on
So well.

But those day have passed.
And my emotions have tempered
My life has settled
Happiness has come 
And discontent has taken a step back.

And yet
There are aspects i find
of my personality
That can be nothing but
the remnants of that time.

I watch out a little too much.
I keep my distance and hide behind
Loud words and big emotions.
I snark and distrust 
and have no patience for what I perceive
To be stupid.
My eyes are on a constant roll.

I suppose 
If I tried
Really really hard
I may find a way
To put these aside.

But I find
I don't want to.

This is my shield
The one I always will wear.
Because life has taught me that shit happens
And this is my only defence.